Essays

“Circles and Stars” I was a new bride, filled with love, wanting to believe that a marriage could last forever, but I was surrounded by second marriages and step-siblings. skirt! December, 2007.

“Not Mine“, If only I could do what she’d done, have what she now had. The Envy ran through my blood. My shameful secret, I was bound by envy like a straightjacket. Seeking release, I wanted to know if her life was better now? skirt! January 2007.

“Dress Up“, “Let’s play dress up,” I’d say to my younger sister, “You can wear the silver heels.” I might have added to convince her. skirt! July, 2007.

“Caught in the Current”   Will stood, at the top of the rock, his body electric, filled with the thrill of the height. Dad hunched forward, to listen to the excitement in Will’s voice, and as they stood at the edge of the rock I could hear Will say,

“Are you thinking what I’m thinking?” And he jumped. skirt! September, 2007.

“Are We Done Yet?” But the thought of saying no, I’m not done, keeps me up at night. The scheduled sex, the waiting and wondering, the final plus mark on the pregnancy test, the ten months of discomfort, the feeling of claustrophobia, of suffocation, and the fear that I’ll never be alone again. skirt! April, 2006.

“Literary Love Affair” I read to understand and escape my world. skirt! February, 2006.

“Dual Diagnosis” “Please God don’t let it be me. I’m not like her, I can’t do what she does.” skirt! September, 2006.

“Everything in Moderation” “idle hands are the devil’s tools!” skirt! July, 2006.